Saturday, June 24, 2006

How Strange, Innocence.

The title of this blog has more meaning to me then ever before. It's true. I think of myself as innocent to the horrors of this world. How strange it is to be innocent. It alientates me from the rest of the world.

I can't hold a girls attention for more than five minutes. this is becaause I don't have enough experience in my opinion.

Why is that? because I am innocent? fuck that. I want to step off the deep end. Just say "Fuck it." Do what I want. But I can't. I can't because I am innocent. I always thinking about the consequenses. Fuck this. I have been trying to type well because I don't want you to know I am drunk. Fuck that. This is me at my weakest. If you can't accept that then you have no place here. Reading my blog. Fuck you if you do, and judge me.

You are not who I need in my life, and I know that... Innocent or not.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Food service blows

I'll be the first to admit that my job sucks. But, I'd be really lucky to find another job like it. There are a few things about it that make staying there worth it. Take today as an example. I woke up... found out I was already an hour and a half late. I went in and started my day. I didnt hear a word from anybody about being late. As the day went on I ended up taking three sepeate breaks, one of which was my standard 30 min. And for about the last hour or so, I sat on my ass doing nothing. It was a pretty good day to say the least. If that happened to me when I had my old job, they probably would have fired me right then and there. It almost makes me want to stay. Almost. Maybe if I can convince them to give me a decent raise next year I wont have to bother to look for another one. But then again, it would be nice to have a job that doesnt involve food.