Wednesday, July 12, 2006

And With That, The End Has Come

So We're done here. This site is officially shutting down. no posts will be made here. You can find our new home at Veritas.Staires.Org

hpe to see you all there!!!

and As for our authors, your priveleges here have been revoked, since I don't want any posts done here. You should post on the new one. If you don't know how, or forgot since I've eplained it, give me a holler and I'll fill you in.

Thanks for reading, and I hope to see you on the new site!

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Looking In All The Wrong Places

So I am at Juan's. I ended up here on a whim, because nothing was going on. Totally forgot about a buddy I was supposed to hang out with, and I feel pretty bad about that since we've been trying to hang out for a bit.

There's a pretty big party going on here tonight, but for the first time, I feel out of place. It's not people I know, nor people whom I would want to know. I've been coming here, because this is a place where people come, a place where girls come. I really realized I don't want any of this.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

How Strange, Innocence.

The title of this blog has more meaning to me then ever before. It's true. I think of myself as innocent to the horrors of this world. How strange it is to be innocent. It alientates me from the rest of the world.

I can't hold a girls attention for more than five minutes. this is becaause I don't have enough experience in my opinion.

Why is that? because I am innocent? fuck that. I want to step off the deep end. Just say "Fuck it." Do what I want. But I can't. I can't because I am innocent. I always thinking about the consequenses. Fuck this. I have been trying to type well because I don't want you to know I am drunk. Fuck that. This is me at my weakest. If you can't accept that then you have no place here. Reading my blog. Fuck you if you do, and judge me.

You are not who I need in my life, and I know that... Innocent or not.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Food service blows

I'll be the first to admit that my job sucks. But, I'd be really lucky to find another job like it. There are a few things about it that make staying there worth it. Take today as an example. I woke up... found out I was already an hour and a half late. I went in and started my day. I didnt hear a word from anybody about being late. As the day went on I ended up taking three sepeate breaks, one of which was my standard 30 min. And for about the last hour or so, I sat on my ass doing nothing. It was a pretty good day to say the least. If that happened to me when I had my old job, they probably would have fired me right then and there. It almost makes me want to stay. Almost. Maybe if I can convince them to give me a decent raise next year I wont have to bother to look for another one. But then again, it would be nice to have a job that doesnt involve food.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Changes For Better, Or Worse

Despite some of the changes I feel I have made concerning my direction in life, there is one thing I have yet to change. My mind going at full throttle with every thought imaginable, at one time. My ability to complicate even the simplest things is still in high gear. I have so many thoughts in my head at one time with any given situation it slows my reactions to situations down. Sometimes frustratingly so, especially if it's an opportunity which I didn't realize at the time.

I'll sit back right now, and sort some out. Starting with the most recent turn of events. I hung out with a few good friends tonight. We went to a show at the Troubadour. It was a show with Tarentel, Mono, and Pelican. The one that impressed me the most was Mono. A band from Japan, they play post-rock extremely well. The show they put on was serene and melodic, and then unleased into a fury of energy that blew me away. The songs were structured in a beautiful compositional structure that told a great story to anyone that imagined it.

Tarentel on the other hand sucked balls. I'm sorry but they have no idea what the fuck music is. Their "songs" if you can call them that, were pure unadulterated noise, played at the highest decibal level possible. It was most definitely the worst band I have ever seen play live, and I thought that I had already seen that. I've been to plenty of metal shows with horrible bands, but even that is more musical than tarentel. That's saying something. Avoid them at all costs.

Pelican was unexpected. Hearing some of the songs on their album they sounded like normal post rock. Songs structured in a symphonic way that breaks ino chaos to express the best the bands have to offer. In post rock, it's often these sections that truly mean something to me. The ones that give way into the true structure of a song, the ones that have evolved beyond noise into structure. Pelican live though, is far different. They go with an extremely hard sound. Unfortunately that works agianst them. I kept wondering at what point the lyrics were going to fall in line with the rest of the music. They are really goos at what they do, they put on a pretty good show, but it was as if they were actually trying to melt faces. Instead of going with what they had already accomkplished on the album, they tried to make it as mind blowing as possible. They simply tried too hard for this, and they failed at it. Like I said they were good, and if you're at a show where they are playing, you might enjoy it, but put simply, they altered their original sound far too much in an attempt to make it better, which in my opinion didn't work.

As it stands it was by far one of the best nights I've had, and I highly recommend checking out Mono if you're into post rock. They just might become one of your favorites.

I don't quite feel like getting into any of the problems I have right now, so I will save that for a later post, since right now, I still don't feel like I can express them well enough for any of you to get a clear picture of what's going on. That's back to my number one problem. My mind thinking so fast I can't keep up. I'm getting better at it, but I am still not quite there... unfortunately.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Watch out for mountain lions

Oh that Kim.... Shes oh so pretty, but not very bright. When did they start showing reruns of 24 on the weekend? As if the four consecutive hours they have every Monday on A&E arent enough. Although I dont know if they're still dong that since the regular season is over.

Speaking of weird shit... I have been meaning to make a post about the Flaming Lips show I went to recently. I dont feel like doing a full review so I'll try to summarize the best I can. The Flaming Lips: Awesome; The other bands: not so awesome. Perhaps I should explain a bit. A few of the FOUR other acts were decent. The crazy reggae band had some catchy songs. I dont think Id buy an album though. The rest of were your standard emo fare; which was a bit surprising to see in a show with The Flaming Lips. Although I guess any band would be out of place with them. The best thing about the show, besides the Lips of course, was the venue. Open Air is such a great place for a show. You can see everything from any seat. More important than that though, was the sound. The sound was amazing. You could actually hear every instrument being played. One thing I hate about shows is that sometimes some instruments are drowned completely out by others. Emo bands are notorious for this, since the general strategy is 'louder and faster.' We Are Scientists was probably the biggest offender in that respect. However, I could still hear the bass player over the excessively loud guitar. The music might have been mediocre, but at least I could hear it all.

By the way... Race For the Prize is the best live song ever. Thats all I have to say about that. I think I will be going back next year regardless of who is playing. Its sponsored by a local radio station I like so I have faith that they will get a good act for next year. Besides, $30 for five bands is a pretty good deal.

Thursday, May 25, 2006


So I am back for the summer and I am busy as all hell! I am determined however to hang out and see tons of shows (like I told you). So let me know when you are around and kickin it. I'll try to do the same.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

All right! I finally remembered my username for this site. Every time I re-format my computer I end up having a hard time getting back on this site because I always forget my username. Perhaps I should disable the auto-login feature. Oh well. The important thing is I remembered.

So, another semester of college is behind me. Another semester of being undecided. But, I couldnt care less about that right now. My good friend alcohol made sure of that. Im just glad its over with. Whatever my grades are, I can worry about them later. Besides, I've got more exciting things to look forward to. The Flamings Lips are playing next week. On Tuesday I will actually be able to buy alcohol for myself. And I'll finally be able to stay here in San Diego for the summer. Ive always wondered what it would be like to live here without an obligation to go to school. I'd have a much better time living here without the added stress.

Anyway, I'll stop before I make a fool of myself. I cant think well enough to write right now. But I wont let our many readers down. More posts to come soon. Just give me some time to sober up.

Sunday, May 14, 2006


So if ya'll didn't know, I turned 21 on the 1st of this month. My sister's birthday was the tenth. So we're clelbrating now. Getting drunk with Family, beats the pants off of anything before it. Especially if it's at your own home.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

The Week of Hell

Wow. I'm finally sitting down to write this. i've been thinking about this for months, and this past week finally culminated in it all. If you didn't know, I work in an italian restaraunt. I mentioned some blogs I found about the restaraunt business, that really put into perspective what it's like. It's now my turn to try my hand at this. I signed on to the resteraunt as a busboy. This past week though, I did enough serving too. The last time I wrote, I was worried about settling in with the resteraunt owners. I was nervous and jittery, and I didn't think they really liked me. I know they do now though. Here follows though a rant about my last week. The type of people I hate. What you should avoid doing in a resteraunt, otherwise you look like an ass. I need to make it known as well, that the majority of rants come when we're nearly full capacity, with me and two waitresses. Which is monday through thursday.

1) as part of the busboy dealy, I am also the host. It's my job to sit people, and make sure they get their water first off. If you walk in with a party of two, I'm going to try my best to sit you at a table of two. Especially if it's busy. Look around. Is it busy? If it is, please sit where I seat you. yes, we have corners. Little private places that are perfect for couples. It doesn't mean if I sit you there, you will be ignored. I tell the waitresses where you are at. I'll check in from time to time, to take down plates that are in the way, and see if everything is ok. NEVER EVER, sit down at a table that you like better, because you think that you can play me by making me think you "thought" I was leading you to that table. I would NOT seat a 2-top at a 4-top if we're busy. Even WORSE, NEVER CHANGE SEATS WITHOUT TELLING US.

worse comes to worst, just ASK if you can be seated elsewhere. Then I'll take the best steps to make sure you're comfortable, and we are comfortable as well.

2) Don't order from the person that sits you. They're most likely the host. If you're in a hurry, let the host know. I'll make sure to get the waitress out to you as fast as possible. It's only gonna slow us down if you give me an order, that I can't write down because it's not my job. Then I try and remember it, probably get it wrong, and the waitress will just come back to confirm it. Pissing you off in the process.

3) look at our hours. Please try and hurry if we're a half an hour away from closing. Don't take your sweet time drinking and talking. If you want to do that, come in earlier. Go out to dinner, BEFORE the movie.

4) This isn't a rant, but just a courtesy. Try and gether up all you've finished. Put plates on top of each other, let me know if you don't want any more refills on your drinks. I don't want to carry four full waters plus you plates to the back. That shit gets heavy.

5) Please don't leave a shit tip. If you've seen Resevoir Dogs, I used to believe in that whole "Don't tip just because society deems it necessary." Seriously. If you KNEW the work we do, you would leave a tip no matter what. and always 15%.

6) Don't act like you KNOW the owners. Yes, our owners love talking to their customers, and I haven't had a problem with anyone saying "I know the owner!!! treat me better!!!!" #1 because I do a good job, and #2 because you don't know them as well as I do. He may have talked to you, got you something one the house, but that's to make sure you come back, and he likes you. This doesn't mean you "know" him.

I'm out. I'll come back with more as it comes.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Review: FF:AC

Wow. Thats all I've got to say. Just... wow. I'd say the wait was well worth it. I had my doubts about a sequel to what, I would say, is my favorite game. But, I am truly satisfied with the results. Square-Enix did an incredible job with this movie. It has everything a fan could ask for; amazing visuals, an abundance of over-the-top action sequences, swords, sword-gun combinations, and a solid (albeit, a little short) storyline.

In spite of my apparant fanboyism, I'll be the first to say its far from perfect. The story, compared to its videogame counterpart, is decent, but nowhere near as engaging as the original. Speaking of which, anyone who hasnt played the game will probably be a bit confused. Hell, Im still not completely sure what was going on. But then again, that was part of what made the game so fascinating. The storyline unfolded in ways that werent completely obvious to the observer. There were always new things to notice each time it was played through. Now Im getting off topic.... Most of the movie revolves around Cloud and Tifa. The other characters pretty much just made cameo appearances, which is a bit disappointing. It would have been nice if they had bigger parts, but I guess in the transition from a 40hr game to a 1.5 hour movie, some things are lost along the way.

Okay, so in summation.... If you are a fan, you will probably like this. If not, go play the game. Then you'd probably want to watch it. Go now!

Edit: Haha. Now that I have a chance to read over this post again, it sounds like something taken right from ign. I should probably try to fix that.

Monday, April 24, 2006

The nerdery continues

So the long wait is finally over. Tommorow is the release of the much anticipated (for me at least) CGI movie; Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. Now the nerdery can continue. And yes, nerdery is a word. Although Im not sure I spelled it right. I havent written anything in so long Im starting to forget how to spell. Considering the exam Im taking is this weekend, this is not a good sign. I need to teach myself how to write in "properspeak" (as I call it) again. The internet and FFXI have done a number on my 'skills of a writer' (Anyone get the reference? No? Damn. I really am a nerd). No more AIMspeak for me. Personally, I could do without lol's, brb's, 4's, and those retarded ur's. Seriously kids, Learn how to fucking spell! And dont g3t m3 s74r7ed 0n 7hi5 5hi7. If you are confused see this example:

And dont bother asking me why I know what that means. Id like to think Im clever enough to figure it out. Anyway, back to what I was rambling about. So the deal is, I have to get a certain score to pass, otherwise I will have to take 1 or 2 classes to make up for it depending on how low my score is. Not that I don't need the units, Id just rather take more classes that have to do with my major. Which I will be changing again soon. Hopefully for the last time. At least in about a month or so, I will be that much closer to getting out of here.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

The Normal Life

So what have I been up to? Same old, Same old. I still work at the resteraunt. Yeah, Datillos. I found two cool sites. I have to mention them to you Waiter Rant and Buon Appetito. Two great sites that give you an idea of the stuff I deal with on a daily basis. Other than dealing with stuff like that, I'm cool. I'm happy because, both Danny and Erin will be in town this summer. It's great news for me.

I really can't wait for Erin to get here though. She's coming on a internship through her school, so she'll be unavailable alot, but it's worth it just because I'll get to see her. She's a great friend. Having a friend like that live across the country is hard. I have to admit, we don't talk like we used too, She's usually pretty busy. Hopefully that will change this summer. I'm looking foward to it.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006


Do you want to know what I dont understand? Why is it that something as simple as taking a written exam can cost $35? I understand it costs money to administer a test like this, but is it really necessary to charge $35 for a test that all students have to take at some point in their college career? I guess Im just bitter because of the money that just fell out of my pocket. Oh yeah. Not to mention the fact that I havent taken a writing course in about three semesters. Hopefully, if I start posting more things here, I will be able to remember how to write a paragraph that doesnt jump around so much.

Maybe I should write a review like Mike did earlier with G.R.A.W. Im sure everyone would be dying to read something like that. I think Im about half way through Kingdom Hearts II. I'd like to finish it first, but I dont think I will have time for that. Perhaps I should just use an older game. One I've already played through and know well. I'll pick one later since its time for me to go to work.

Monday, April 17, 2006

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